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Doctor Who thoughts
not-fanfics, some that I shared with my friends on Facebook
1. The duckpond in Leadworth is called a duckpond even though it doesn't have any ducks (that Amy can remember) because ... the ducks went through the crack and people forgot them? But wouldn't Amy have noticed little ducks trooping through her room? And shooed them outside?
Or maybe she enticed them into her room because she was lonely and she wanted pets, and then the crack ate them and she forgot them.
Or maybe she only enticed one, and then it fell through the crack and she forgot it, so she enticed another, and so on and so on until all the ducks were gone and all that was left was a duckpond without ducks.
2. Amy remembers a timeline where she grew up happy and loved with a big family. She also remembers a timeline where she didn't. She even remembers a timeline where time never passed and she worked in the pyramids. Each timeline has affected her, her personality, her character, just the tiniest bit. So her parents don't understand why she wants to live on her own with Rory far from Leadworth, and she doesn't have the heart to tell them it's because sometimes having everyone in one room is suffocatingly too many people who are too much a part of her life. Other times, she sits in her and Rory's living room and feels so lonely, cannot believe that she willingly chose to abandon her family and leave the people she loves so far behind.
Amy can remember being best friends with Mel since their very first fight in kindergarten. If she strains hard enough, she can also remember a timeline (the one where her family abandoned her one by one through no fault of their own) where she never met Mel.
Amy can remember a timeline where she was sent to four different psychologists, and one where she was sent to none at all. One where there were ducks in the duckpond in Leadworth, and one where she took a zeppelin to school watched gladiators fighting to death on the telly after.
(Does Amy even remember the timeline she never lived, where she spent 36 years without any human contact and learned to wire her own sonic screwdriver?)
The only thing Amy can't remember is a time, any time, where she got to have her little baby daughter and watch her grow up.
3. Rory can't remember anything. He tries not to remember anything. When he thinks too hard, it all comes back, and thousands of years of memories of loneliness at once are a bit hard to handle.
4. Sometimes when Amy sees a child, she can't help but think what River, what Melody, must have been like at that age, first time around. Instead of growing up with parents who loved her, she was trapped in a suit and she couldn't get out. Sometimes, when Amy sees a child, it is all she can do not to cry, because she will never be able to hold her daughter the same way most parents get to.
5. River doesn't ever regret the way things turned out, however. It is easier for her, because she lived through it all, for her to relegate her experiences as Not So Bad considering all the good things that resulted.
I wonder how much all that time around the Silents affects/affected her memories, though. The orphanage-man clearly had serious memory issues as a result of long-termed Silence-exposure. And River clearly doesn't remember Madame Kovarian or the Silence when she's forced into the suit. Does that mean she has difficult remember large portions of her childhood? Maybe all that she can remember is flashes of memory of being stuck in that suit and trying to claw her way out.
1. The duckpond in Leadworth is called a duckpond even though it doesn't have any ducks (that Amy can remember) because ... the ducks went through the crack and people forgot them? But wouldn't Amy have noticed little ducks trooping through her room? And shooed them outside?
Or maybe she enticed them into her room because she was lonely and she wanted pets, and then the crack ate them and she forgot them.
Or maybe she only enticed one, and then it fell through the crack and she forgot it, so she enticed another, and so on and so on until all the ducks were gone and all that was left was a duckpond without ducks.
2. Amy remembers a timeline where she grew up happy and loved with a big family. She also remembers a timeline where she didn't. She even remembers a timeline where time never passed and she worked in the pyramids. Each timeline has affected her, her personality, her character, just the tiniest bit. So her parents don't understand why she wants to live on her own with Rory far from Leadworth, and she doesn't have the heart to tell them it's because sometimes having everyone in one room is suffocatingly too many people who are too much a part of her life. Other times, she sits in her and Rory's living room and feels so lonely, cannot believe that she willingly chose to abandon her family and leave the people she loves so far behind.
Amy can remember being best friends with Mel since their very first fight in kindergarten. If she strains hard enough, she can also remember a timeline (the one where her family abandoned her one by one through no fault of their own) where she never met Mel.
Amy can remember a timeline where she was sent to four different psychologists, and one where she was sent to none at all. One where there were ducks in the duckpond in Leadworth, and one where she took a zeppelin to school watched gladiators fighting to death on the telly after.
(Does Amy even remember the timeline she never lived, where she spent 36 years without any human contact and learned to wire her own sonic screwdriver?)
The only thing Amy can't remember is a time, any time, where she got to have her little baby daughter and watch her grow up.
3. Rory can't remember anything. He tries not to remember anything. When he thinks too hard, it all comes back, and thousands of years of memories of loneliness at once are a bit hard to handle.
4. Sometimes when Amy sees a child, she can't help but think what River, what Melody, must have been like at that age, first time around. Instead of growing up with parents who loved her, she was trapped in a suit and she couldn't get out. Sometimes, when Amy sees a child, it is all she can do not to cry, because she will never be able to hold her daughter the same way most parents get to.
5. River doesn't ever regret the way things turned out, however. It is easier for her, because she lived through it all, for her to relegate her experiences as Not So Bad considering all the good things that resulted.
I wonder how much all that time around the Silents affects/affected her memories, though. The orphanage-man clearly had serious memory issues as a result of long-termed Silence-exposure. And River clearly doesn't remember Madame Kovarian or the Silence when she's forced into the suit. Does that mean she has difficult remember large portions of her childhood? Maybe all that she can remember is flashes of memory of being stuck in that suit and trying to claw her way out.
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